Off to the psychaitrist

18th May 2016

Well I've managed to dodge another bullet and been kept out of hospital for another week.  My weight has gone slightly up, but I'm still not eating properly, so it's slow going and a long time to eat.  I just spent 3 minutes on the loo which is a record time for me;  it's usually more like 23 minutes minimum.  My blood test was O.K. , but something in my liver is high but it's been higher before, so I have to go back again next week for another weigh at exactly the same time on the same scales.

It's a question that's always asked when you go to the doctors or specialist with a problem.  it's always 'when did it start/' or 'how long have you had it?'  that's not too bad if its just a few days but when you have to go back in time to when my eating started getting worse, I can't pinpoint it.  It's like we all need computer memory chips in our head to recall every detail of every day of our life.  My brain doesn't work like that.  My music teacher at school once gave the best report I ever got .  She said I was erratic. Probably the most accurate description of me ever.

I have a follow-up appointment with the psychiatrist at 10.30 today. I don't have a great deal of faith in him, because he doesn't do talking sessions , he just prescribes medication and palmed me off with the psychiatric nurse.  We definitely need ore regulated counsellors and psychologists on the NHS.  Who knows what counsellor  to pick and who can afford them?

Why am I seeing a psychiatrist you ask? (or maybe not).  Well it's because on my second trip to the hospital for rehydration.  I had a video fleuroscopy (I think that's how you spell it) basically it just x rayed my swallowing from the side and the result was that there was nothing wrong with my swallow so then it was decided that it was all psychological. The won't know really for sure till I have an ENT appointment which I am dreading, but as there's such a long waiting list for that I'm hoping I will be cured before so I won't have to go.

So I'm off to see the psychiatrist now.  My husband is driving me as I've just taken a diazepam.

Bye all

Keep well