28/2/2017
It's no the cough that carries you off but the coffin they carry you off in as the saying goes and I'm nearly there. just started taking Penicillin for my 3 week long cough. It's draining. This is the after math of that cold I had 3 weeks ago. And it's at this time that I'm asked whether I feel fit enough to go back to work. well (cough) what(cough) do (cough) you think (Cough, cough)?
I'm still pretty much in my FREEZE stage as well because of this cough and everything else going on
We're still in a right mess in the house. Cant find or get at anything I need. Just taught a little girl a guitar lesson yesterday and I really enjoyed it, but it was difficult for me carrying my guitar around to her house. She like me likes Amy Macdonald, nut I can't get at my cd now oh well Bad timing I suppose. Not enough time and energy to get myself sorted out.
Bye for now
Tuesday 28 February 2017
Thursday 23 February 2017
Feeling disempowered
23/2/2017
I was feeling very anxious and almost suicidal yesterday. I'm not completely sure why. It may be because my husband is definitely moving to a transition centre next week and I will be left to fend for myself; all alone. It could also be a recognition of my fragility and lack of power right now. From working so hard and finding it hard to work I now don't know if I want to work, but if I just give up now won't that make me feel worse?
Dilemma, dilemma
Bye for now
I was feeling very anxious and almost suicidal yesterday. I'm not completely sure why. It may be because my husband is definitely moving to a transition centre next week and I will be left to fend for myself; all alone. It could also be a recognition of my fragility and lack of power right now. From working so hard and finding it hard to work I now don't know if I want to work, but if I just give up now won't that make me feel worse?
Dilemma, dilemma
Bye for now
Wednesday 22 February 2017
Still coughing well
22/2/2017
Was supposed to be singing with my poet friend at the Home today, but she's quite capable of getting on with it by herself; said I'd do my half on Friday. You know the story about the fight or flight syndrome from ancient days to get us out of trouble. There's more talk now about the freeze' like when a rabbit is caught in the headlights of a car it just freezes. Well I am feeling more like that every day now. I sit on my settee and just freeze watching TV. There's loads of info on the fight or flight response, but not so much on the FREEZE.
I am in the Frozen Zone right now don't want to move or do anything; too scared.
Bye for now
Was supposed to be singing with my poet friend at the Home today, but she's quite capable of getting on with it by herself; said I'd do my half on Friday. You know the story about the fight or flight syndrome from ancient days to get us out of trouble. There's more talk now about the freeze' like when a rabbit is caught in the headlights of a car it just freezes. Well I am feeling more like that every day now. I sit on my settee and just freeze watching TV. There's loads of info on the fight or flight response, but not so much on the FREEZE.
I am in the Frozen Zone right now don't want to move or do anything; too scared.
Bye for now
Monday 20 February 2017
All in the mind
20/2/1017
I'm still coughing and a little off my food. at least '[m not worried about that anymore; in fact I'd appreciate loosing a few more pounds. I think this country is too obsessed with weight. I felt fitter when I was 6 stone, but the medical profession aren't happy with that. sometimes I just think, why can't they leave us alone to work things out for ourselves. How much do we really need the doctor (says the hypochondriac, in there nearly every week)? I just thought the other day there's nothing wrong with me and my husband says it's all in the mind. It's freeing to believe that but difficult for me.Nearly every thought is negative. Why can't I 'always look on the Bright side of life'/
bye for now
I'm still coughing and a little off my food. at least '[m not worried about that anymore; in fact I'd appreciate loosing a few more pounds. I think this country is too obsessed with weight. I felt fitter when I was 6 stone, but the medical profession aren't happy with that. sometimes I just think, why can't they leave us alone to work things out for ourselves. How much do we really need the doctor (says the hypochondriac, in there nearly every week)? I just thought the other day there's nothing wrong with me and my husband says it's all in the mind. It's freeing to believe that but difficult for me.Nearly every thought is negative. Why can't I 'always look on the Bright side of life'/
bye for now
Friday 17 February 2017
Couging better
17/2/2017
It's been a week now and I'm still sleeping upright in bed because of the coughing. This morning was the first time I'd been out all week and that was to see the doctor. I was panicking for nothing because no-one knows who referred me for an E.N.T.so I can just cancel it. Got my hearing aids changed today but don't know if they are too loud now and giving me a headache. Had a small baked potato lunchtime, but struggled with it and then had a crippling wind after do I was sorry then and realised I'm still not quite up to eating normally again yet. I've only lost a couple of pounds; I was hoping it would be more because I still look as if I should be cast in 'Blubber' somehow.
I can't believe clothes wash day has come around again. Where does the time go when you're doing nothing?
I cancelled work today because I don't wasn't any of my nursing home residents to get what I've had all week I think it would kill some of them off.
I hope you didn't get the bug
Bye for now
It's been a week now and I'm still sleeping upright in bed because of the coughing. This morning was the first time I'd been out all week and that was to see the doctor. I was panicking for nothing because no-one knows who referred me for an E.N.T.so I can just cancel it. Got my hearing aids changed today but don't know if they are too loud now and giving me a headache. Had a small baked potato lunchtime, but struggled with it and then had a crippling wind after do I was sorry then and realised I'm still not quite up to eating normally again yet. I've only lost a couple of pounds; I was hoping it would be more because I still look as if I should be cast in 'Blubber' somehow.
I can't believe clothes wash day has come around again. Where does the time go when you're doing nothing?
I cancelled work today because I don't wasn't any of my nursing home residents to get what I've had all week I think it would kill some of them off.
I hope you didn't get the bug
Bye for now
Monday 13 February 2017
Half dead
13/2/2017
I guess you're wondering where I've been the last few days. Well I had what some would call the flu or just a bad cold, but anyway I could hardly move Sunday and didn't feel like eating at all. Still not that keen on eating too much. Been drinking a lot more though. Can't seem to stop; which I guess is a good thing. My husband has been the same or even worse as he pulled a muscle and every time he coughed it hurt.
What's the difference between the flu and a cold anyway, and does it affect peopled with M.S more severely?
I can feel a coughing fit coming on. here I go again.
Bye
I guess you're wondering where I've been the last few days. Well I had what some would call the flu or just a bad cold, but anyway I could hardly move Sunday and didn't feel like eating at all. Still not that keen on eating too much. Been drinking a lot more though. Can't seem to stop; which I guess is a good thing. My husband has been the same or even worse as he pulled a muscle and every time he coughed it hurt.
What's the difference between the flu and a cold anyway, and does it affect peopled with M.S more severely?
I can feel a coughing fit coming on. here I go again.
Bye
Thursday 9 February 2017
Raining wood chips today
9/2/2017
There are little bits of wood shavings everywhere after fitting the door handles and there are still three to go. So it's from snowy (clean) bits of paper hankies to now wood chips. It all started with just dust. It's a good thing that the weather has been fine for our workmen over the last few weeks, yep we're into our 6th week now and there are still little bits to be done and even then we still have to paint the doors ourselves.
When will it ever end.
I've had another letter to attend an E.N. T. clinic so I have to face my worst nightmare again; the tune up your nose and down your throat. honestly I can't sing anymore. My range is extremely limited.
I have to keep changing octaves to sing in church.
It's getting colder folks. Wrap up warm and
Bye for now
There are little bits of wood shavings everywhere after fitting the door handles and there are still three to go. So it's from snowy (clean) bits of paper hankies to now wood chips. It all started with just dust. It's a good thing that the weather has been fine for our workmen over the last few weeks, yep we're into our 6th week now and there are still little bits to be done and even then we still have to paint the doors ourselves.
When will it ever end.
I've had another letter to attend an E.N. T. clinic so I have to face my worst nightmare again; the tune up your nose and down your throat. honestly I can't sing anymore. My range is extremely limited.
I have to keep changing octaves to sing in church.
It's getting colder folks. Wrap up warm and
Bye for now
Wednesday 8 February 2017
Snowing Iindooors
8/2/2017
Well I can't believe I've done it again. I left a paper hanky in the washing so it will be snowing indoors for at least a week now. The best time to get the white fluff off is when it's still wet, but it's still a big job.
Luckily the doors are nearly finished and the Fridge/freezer is going to be collected by my husbands friend on Saturday so we will be able to settle in then and start getting back to normal. the trouble with having a brand spanking new kitchen is that you then need to get all the rest of the house done. we still need to paint the doors white after they builders have gone. it never ends just like my hanky snow and that little bit of tinsel you find in June from your Christmas decorations. why is it always green is what I'd like to know?
Bye for now
Well I can't believe I've done it again. I left a paper hanky in the washing so it will be snowing indoors for at least a week now. The best time to get the white fluff off is when it's still wet, but it's still a big job.
Luckily the doors are nearly finished and the Fridge/freezer is going to be collected by my husbands friend on Saturday so we will be able to settle in then and start getting back to normal. the trouble with having a brand spanking new kitchen is that you then need to get all the rest of the house done. we still need to paint the doors white after they builders have gone. it never ends just like my hanky snow and that little bit of tinsel you find in June from your Christmas decorations. why is it always green is what I'd like to know?
Bye for now
Monday 6 February 2017
Still trapped
6/2/2017
Well the kitchen is finished apart from a door handle. But it will take about 10 years I think before anyone will be able to see it, as all the builders tools are still in our cubby hole while they have gone off to do another job and will be popping by to finish our new doors when they can. In the meantime we have a fridge Freezer we cant get rid of and until we do we can't sit on one settee to watch the TV and my husband still can't put his car in the garage because the remaining doors are in there. So to sum it up we are still in a right mess and can't sort much stuff out. I can't teach guitar to a little girl I promised before Christmas unless I go to her house.
I went to my 108 year old's birthday party yesterday and Someone took a photo of us together and blimy she looks healthier than me!
Bye for now
Well the kitchen is finished apart from a door handle. But it will take about 10 years I think before anyone will be able to see it, as all the builders tools are still in our cubby hole while they have gone off to do another job and will be popping by to finish our new doors when they can. In the meantime we have a fridge Freezer we cant get rid of and until we do we can't sit on one settee to watch the TV and my husband still can't put his car in the garage because the remaining doors are in there. So to sum it up we are still in a right mess and can't sort much stuff out. I can't teach guitar to a little girl I promised before Christmas unless I go to her house.
I went to my 108 year old's birthday party yesterday and Someone took a photo of us together and blimy she looks healthier than me!
Bye for now
Wednesday 1 February 2017
New Doors
1/2/2017
That's the problem when you decorate one part of the house then the rest looks like it needs doing too, but that would be an even bigger task to sort out all the rubbish. They're still downstairs doing some tweaks to the kitchen and then we're going to have new doors throughout the house, which will mean access all areas we can no longer hide upstairs while they get on with it downstairs. don't know what we are going to do for dinner and tea.
I'm having my hearing aids fitted today; that's another thing to look forward to. Apparently about half of people with M.S suffer with some kind of hearing problems, so I am not alone. Though I feel it because I've not spoken to or heard anything from my so-called MS nurse for 2 years now. Perhaps I should give her a call.
Bye for now
That's the problem when you decorate one part of the house then the rest looks like it needs doing too, but that would be an even bigger task to sort out all the rubbish. They're still downstairs doing some tweaks to the kitchen and then we're going to have new doors throughout the house, which will mean access all areas we can no longer hide upstairs while they get on with it downstairs. don't know what we are going to do for dinner and tea.
I'm having my hearing aids fitted today; that's another thing to look forward to. Apparently about half of people with M.S suffer with some kind of hearing problems, so I am not alone. Though I feel it because I've not spoken to or heard anything from my so-called MS nurse for 2 years now. Perhaps I should give her a call.
Bye for now
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